being online affect who you are?
S. However, On the internet,
I feel that I can explore his [my] ideas and thoughts to a fuller extent,
I can write what I want and if I want to leave someone or just not want
to talk to someone, I can ignore them, a nifty function that life does
not have to offer. Back to my point on how I can explore who I am, through
my experiances on the internet, I have found out that people tend to
be more onest with what they are feeling. They tend to express their
feelings and emotions in a way that I find to be very freeing. I mean,
how often do people just tell you what is really on their mind and I
have noticed that I tend to do the same myself. However, that sort of
attitude tends to leak into my daily life more and more often. For example,
today I got into a discussion on Affirmative Action with one of the
more articulate speakers at my school and I pressed my case very well
because I told him what I was feeling and I was very vocal on my opinion.
Reality is what you make it, to me reality is both dark and ugly as
well as beautiful. Who knows, that reality might not be real to anyone
else, however, to me that is what it is, the internet is just another
aspect of my reality and is almost as important as the "real" world.
E. Nein, bin immer noch so liebevoll
wie vorher...;-) Nun, veraendert hat sich nicht die E., sondern ihr
Horizont - so wuerde ich von mir sagen, mehr als je zuvor, "ueber den
tellerrand hinaus" zu blicken. Mein Interesse fuer andere Religionen,
Nationen, Kulturen, "Rassen" usw. ist enorm gestiegen.
E. (Translation) Do you think that
you've changed since you've been online? If yes, how so? - No, i'm still
as loving as before... ;-) Well, not E. has changed, but her horizon
- that's what I would say of myself, more than ever, looking ouside
of my own life. My interest in other religions, nations, cultures and
"races" has risen dramatically.)
<Fg>I guess when I got
into the internet I was a little dweeby, I still had a great personality
and a lot of firneds, but I wasn't really a social butterfly, I had
a few friends. I was in sixth grade, at my awkward stage. Glasses, buck
teeth... bad haircut. I felt like I wasn't accepted, I felt ugly. ...Well,
no one knows what you look like online, you make tons of friends, even
people who noramlly wouldnt be friends with you in real life, because
they don't see you and pre-judge you first really. So I felt much mroe
comfortable to be myself. I felt accepted. My confidence
rose, I stopped feeling ugly (mostly because I got contacts and braces
and my hair grew) but I think the net helped.
<M>Were you able to express yourself differently online ... ?
< Fg>not really, i tend to be a pretty open person. i did become
more "deep" because up until then, i was obsessed with looks and how
people perceived me. i learned a lot of things on the internet and FROM
the internet, and i became more involved in issues that mattered...
NOT looks. people get too hung up on looks
<Z> [onground] I always talk about what I
do on there, how I run my positions, how awesome it is to be connected
<Z> and if I'm talking o somebody, and
they say something funny ... sometimes instead of laughing I'll comment:
"L O L" [laughing out loud] <g>
<M> :), and they look at *you* funny??
<Z> LOL they think I'm crazy ... go
<M> how do you think your home life has changed,
or has it , through the Internet? i mean, through you using the Internet?
<Z> I think it's changed drastically
<Z> Whenever I'm home, if I'm not eating,
sleeping, or getting ready to go out ... you'll find me in my chair
infront of the computer ...
<Z> Well, I definately have different views
now than I have before ... for example, I no longer judge people at
all based on their backgrounds, appearances, etc ...
<Z> Being around so many people, and talking
to them regardless of who they are, or how they are, you don't have
to think about anything else except their "screen name." That made me
realize that I can do the same in real life ... it doesn't have to matter
who they are, just if they are nice to talk to ...
<M> do you think you've changed from the time
before you went online, to now?
<Z> I'd definately say yes on this one ... Before I started online,
I think I did more stuff "with my family." Now, I much rather be online
than be with people in my house, because of the fact that it's so much
more pleasant online. What I mean by that is, I don't have to hear babies
screaming online, or I don't have to watch my little sisters, or "spend
quality time" with them.